Helen - A Victim of Ritual Abuse
The video is interesting and tragic as many videos of survivors of ritual abuse are, but this video is particularly valuable as it shows several things of interest not perhaps normally found in videos about survivors.
Several changes of alter live on video which is relatively rare
Pictures of drawings of abuse from Helen’s diaries
The person interviewing and making the programme was a friend of Helen’s from school and can corroborate some stories eg Cosy Corner when Ruth Selwyn presumably thought she was talking with Helen and was actually meeting with an alter William, who told Ruth of the Cosy Corner story when they remet. This shows the alters were in place at a young age.
Interview with a teacher of Helen’s which can corroborate some of Helen’s early life/personality.
Ruth her friend learns about dissociation and alters as the video progresses
I suspect Helen has many more than 7 personalities.
Odysee FAC The Woman With 7 Personalities – A Victim of Ritual Abuse [5]
In The Woman with 7 Personalities, filmmaker Ruth Selwyn attempts to explain and define the seven alter egos of her childhood friend, Helen. Helen suffers from Dissociative Identity Disorder, which is better known as Multiple Personality Disorder. Her personalities range from young boys to young girls. And she never remembers the previous personality after she transitions into the next.
Several of the egos that overtake her existence have dangerous addictions to drugs and alcohol. While none of the addictions turn out to be fatal, Ruth discovers that Helen uses these destructive personalities to escape from a childhood filled with abuse. At one point, Helen shocks her friend by explaining that the characters she allows to take over her personality each have a unique role to help her deal with the traumatic pain that she had suffered at the hands of others as a child.
Respect to Ruth for writing and directing this, and I would love her to contact me on cathyfox@zoho.com
Transcript is after the links.
Gallery of some stills from the video of Helen, her alters and her drawings of abuse.
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Links
[1] You tube Dr. Joan Coleman : Abus Rituels Sataniques et Trouble Dissociatif de l’Identité
2 min (Ts at very end)
[2] Youtube Alex Lebreton Hélène: personnalité multiple et abus rituels sataniques – Trouble dissociatif de l’identité 14min
[3] Youtube Extraits d’un documentaire de Ruth Selwyn (UK 2004) private
[4] BFI Ruth Selwyn The Woman with Seven Personalities (2004) https://www2.bfi.org.uk/films-tv-people/4ce2b8ae59251
[5] Odysee FAC The Woman With 7 Personalities – A Victim of Ritual Abuse https://odysee.com/@FoxesAmazingChannel:8/yt5s.com-The-Woman-With-7-Personalities—A-Victim-of-Ritual-Abuse(360p):3
In The Woman with 7 Personalities, filmmaker Ruth Selwyn attempts to explain and define the seven alter egos of her childhood friend, Helen. Helen suffers from Dissociative Identity Disorder, which is better known as Multiple Personality Disorder. Her personalities range from young boys to young girls. And she never remembers the previous personality after she transitions into the next.
Several of the egos that overtake her existence have dangerous addictions to drugs and alcohol. While none of the addictions turn out to be fatal, Ruth discovers that Helen uses these destructive personalities to escape from a childhood filled with abuse. At one point, Helen shocks her friend by explaining that the characters she allows to take over her personality each have a unique role to help her deal with the traumatic pain that she had suffered at the hands of others as a child.
[6] You tube Tacito Monroe The Woman With 7 Personalities – A Victim of Ritual Abuse
48 mins This documentary was made by Ruth Selwyn about her friend Helen. Helen was a victim of Ritual Abuse and this documentary illustrates the reality and tragedy of Trauma Based Mind Control. Ruth even visits the UK’s branch of the False Memory Syndrome Foundation, and comes to the realisation herself that they have their own agenda. Ruth appears at first to be unaware of the dark and nefarious world that underlies Trauma Based Mind Control, and it is interesting that this documentary is freely available on youtube and doesn’t seemed to have been aired on national TV.
[7] 2004 Watch Documentaries The Woman with 7 Personalities https://watchdocumentaries.com/the-woman-with-7-personalities/
[111] 2022 Jul 13 cathyfoxblog Helen - a Victim of Ritual Abuse https://cathyfox.wordpress.com/2022/07/13/helen-a-victim-of-ritual-abuse/
Full Transcript
Odysee FAC The Woman With 7 Personalities – A Victim of Ritual Abuse [5]
0:04 baby come back by
0:11 baby come back
0:17 it’s easy big guy I’m growing as it was here when I
0:39 arrived I’m another pop it all right
0:53 haha
1:04 this is Helen she has an extremely rare condition called dissociative identity
1:10 disorder commonly known as multiple personality disorder when she is Helen
1:16 she appears like any other 35 year old woman but she has several alter
1:23 personalities that she can suddenly switch to at any moment
1:33 Milind and I very high up the king at London you know what that is
1:39 over there Big Ben yeah and houses your palms that’s right
1:50 shocked and while the other personalities are out helen has no idea
1:56 what they get up to
2:04 helen hasn’t always been like this I’ve known her since we were eight she was
2:10 one of my best friends for many years but we lost touch after leaving school 12 years later I bumped into her on a
2:17 train and I was shocked when she told me she had this strange disorder
2:24 this is me and Helen at my tenth birthday party she used to stay over at
2:30 my house and we’d have midnight feasts after my parents had gone to bed she was
2:36 popular intelligent and funny I thought she had everything going for her but
2:42 shortly after she graduated Helen developed her multiple personalities seeing her again after so
2:49 many years I couldn’t believe how much she changed we decided to make this film
2:55 to try to uncover the mysteries of Helens disorder I wanted to find out
3:01 what the hell had happened to my old school friend
3:09 this is a blast from the past
3:21 John I started hanging out with Helen her house looks like one big playroom and
3:27 hearing the banana splits made me feel like I was in a time warp
3:40 John I
3:48 the switching did take a bit of getting used to Adam was the first of helens
3:54 personalities that I met the first time he came out was a bit unnerving but I soon got used to this cute little boy
4:03 I knew that there were other personalities and I never knew what all who to expect when I went round to see
4:09 her I can hear a little voice in my head hey mr. William me till with me you and
4:27 I William d1 yeah I remember you
4:38 frenching down feet yes I do you
4:45 remember cosy corner that’s right
4:51 that’s right I remember Kathy Kohner as well can she gone now this was the first
4:58 time I met William I was amazed that he reminded me so much of Helen as an
5:04 eight-year-old cosy corner was at the end of the playground where we would sneak off to kiss our boyfriends I’d
5:10 forgotten all about it I used to do it we stir happy oh that
5:20 the original mr. happy yes mr. Payne and I stayed at your house and mr. Happy’s I
5:29 fell off a new daddy puts it back on for
5:35 me yeah William took me back 30 years to when
5:41 Helen and I used to talk in baby voices with that same doll she would say mr. happy sad and I would say why is mr.
5:48 happy sad I wondered if the reason why mr. happy was sad when we were children could hold a clue to why Helen is like
5:55 this today I know it mr. happy but
6:05 sometimes even mr. happy get sad yes
6:11 wanted you to cheer him up inside yet
6:18 mr. tickle tickle tickle tickle tickle tickle tickle tickle tickle when I was
6:25 14 I saw a child psychiatrist and I was always listening to the hill for faces
6:32 it says I’ve got for this for that for
6:37 the other and I don’t know which one’s me so you got your driving license Adam
6:47 it gets getting stuck yeah I just really
6:52 identified through this piece of music and it’s almost with hindsight I had
6:58 insight into the fact that I was multiple did you see that yeah I knew
7:06 something was wrong but I couldn’t pinpoint it and I’ve got more than four
7:15 phases
7:23 there’s William who’s six and William loves the mr. men
7:31 there’s Adam he’s ten who gets upset sometimes because he can’t play outside
7:36 with the other boys and girls and there’s Alex he’s five and Alex you to
7:41 everybody and leave it it’s quite
7:47 wearing after a while it gets on your nerves then there’s Brenda he’s not sure where
7:55 she’s 13 or 14 she doesn’t mince her words she and
8:02 another personality of mine Carl who’s 16 of both harm me in the past and Jamie
8:13 and Elizabeth but they don’t appear as
8:19 often so seven I’ve got seven it’s I’ve
8:25 got seven and I don’t know which one it’s me they’re all me as I’m so screwed
8:38 up god
8:44 after my first few weeks with Helen I had only met Adam and William I still
8:50 hadn’t met Alex Karl or Brenda I wanted to know if these more sinister sounding
8:55 personalities could help me unlock some of the dark secrets of Helens past
9:14 you get away from me
9:24 getting to know my old school friend again with her multiple personalities I saw had a strange disorder affected her
9:31 day-to-day life I wanted to know what it
9:42 felt like to switch personalities it
10:00 bizarre seeing and switching people have told me
10:07 that my facial expression changes and I know my voice changes because it I can
10:14 hear my like when they talk to me their voice is kind of childlike but I didn’t
10:22 realize that it comes out childlike as well and this is really bizarre whilst I
10:36 know when I switch well afterwards I don’t know what I’ve been doing whereas
10:41 you know this kind of filled in the gaps
10:48 you know I could be walking along the street and be anybody and it’s kind of
10:55 like makes me feel a bit vulnerable
11:03 these periods of amnesia are particularly alarming because Helen is very isolated she has little contact
11:11 with her family and she only has one good friend derec socially I don’t feel
11:16 very confident and so consequently then I live quite an isolated life but I’ve
11:24 lived alone since I was 17 anyway so it’s no big deal really I tend to relate
11:32 better to people who are older than myself Ethel swallowed her brother by Helen I
11:38 met Derek four years ago he’s a highly intelligent Blake and I found that we
11:45 struck a chord in the sense that we could have some intelligent conversation
11:56 I just got to know him better and seen
12:01 this very vulnerable person you are I care about a great deal as a friend I
12:07 had in mind at Christmas because otherwise he would have spent two alone I would spend it alone and I had a good
12:17 time
12:29 okay lovie Adam crazy
12:43 for over 30 years oh that one Oh mrs. Arzu Helen
12:52 that story Adam how soon
12:59 Adam can be quite assertive and lively at times but on other days I saw a quite different subdued little boy I soon
13:07 learned how to lift his spirits and I knew exactly where to take him I would’ve liked to have gone for bike
13:13 ride but my tires flat simple religious
13:18 wish that I had some friends I could play with but they don’t see me as Adam
13:26 they see me as heaven alone together
13:34 that’s for babies oh my going on the side I know but just
13:47 go away and doesn’t mean that I can’t be
13:55 friends with people sometimes I come out
14:02 protect Emma from the bad days other
14:08 times I come out to play
14:26 I’m intoxicated there with alcohol and yet I don’t drink so one of the altars
14:35 must have been drinking and her annoys
14:43 me worrying to say that because could
14:53 walk out in front of her bus I wasn’t surprised to learn that Helen is now a
14:58 recovering alcoholic I remember going into town after school to drink booze that hadn’t had brought because she
15:04 didn’t want to go straight home for me it was a bit of harmless fun but Helen
15:09 was becoming more and more withdrawn we decided to visit our old form tutor mr.
15:14 Faulkner to see if he remembered anything significant about Helen
15:23 you’ve hardly changed you have hardly changed slipper to say
15:30 it how are you people help you I would
15:36 have known a recognizer straightaway Bridget I really want ya know feels
15:42 really strange than it does yeah does yeah I’ve been up your prison beam up been back here since you do it no no I
15:51 someone else is gonna come out in a minute
15:56 then as really explained to you about yeah yeah mr. Faulkner I remember you
16:22 from school will you miss gone now hmm this room
16:31 wasn’t here when you were here at school it this used to be a cloakroom exactly
16:38 there’s an open space all these walls you can see weren’t here they were elsewhere it looks a bit
16:44 different there it doesn’t mean that’s right no I didn’t have a beard when you would have no man much – that’s right see I can see a bunch of the
16:50 Worcestershire about in tablets remember what we used to call him – thank you all
16:58 I learn all these things afterwards you know never the time hmm cashy mm-hmm I think I dunno I think I
17:07 remember that yes dear
17:16 as I’m just came in to say hi all right sorry oh don’t have to apologize
17:23 with explode that let’s explained everything to me let’s have a look
17:30 around Helen was lovely she’s a really pretty girl really vicious you know a charming
17:36 lass but at times you you you couldn’t
17:42 you didn’t know where you were you know like like she wasn’t predictable there
17:49 were times when she’d be lovely and bouncing and labelling all the times when the shutters would come up and you
17:54 couldn’t get through I knew there were troubles for Helen because of discussions that have gone on in the staff room but my understanding was that
18:02 this was being dealt with by someone else within the school and it was going to work out okay for Helen I also
18:08 thought things would work out for Helen but her condition means she’s unable to hold down a full-time job she lives in a
18:14 council flat and survives on benefits conventional medicine doesn’t offer any solutions there are no drugs to cure di
18:21 D only to control the symptoms these are Prozac which is an
18:28 antidepressant and I’m on the highest dose which is 60 milligram IV been
18:33 taking those for 14 years they help keep my mood on an even keel and they take
18:41 diazepam which is valium the valium just calm me down and keep me chilled out
18:50 these are olanzapine they’re an anti-psychotic then these the last ones
18:57 are peak Lane which is a sleeping tablet a lot of the tablets give me heartburn
19:02 so I’ve got loads of bottles of gaviscon these are just lem sips and my girl even
19:12 light bulb it was upsetting to see Helen
19:18 taking so many pills I wanted to know what was going on inside her head
19:23 she gave me her Diaries from when her alters first appeared I thought that they might hold the key to discovering
19:28 how her multiple personalities had been formed I saw some disturbing pictures and noticed that each personality had
19:35 different handwriting it was chilling to see some of the dialog between the different alters I read page after page
19:42 describing the pain Helen was suffering one entry particularly caught my
19:47 attention the sun is shining outside and I’m feeling really low part of me feels
19:53 like overdosing but I know that the next one might kill me and I don’t want that I just want to block it all out Karl
20:02 I’ve overdosed about 100 times it was not me as Helen it was Brenda Carla was
20:11 doing it and it wasn’t ever to kill myself it was to block out pain Helen
20:19 and her alters wrote about the pain that they were going through but it still wasn’t clear to me exactly what the root
20:24 of this pain was I cut my arm because that was shouting and screaming and I
20:29 was remembering bad things and needed to get it out I’m sorry if I hurt you it’s
20:35 not my fault because I’ve got lots of bad things in my head Brenda Karl and Brenda started cutting
20:45 myself and there’s some nice cars here but some old ones as well I cut an
20:53 artery once and that scared the living daylights out of me it’s been virtually
21:02 continual cutting myself for the last 10
21:10 years it was distressing to see the scars on
21:16 her arms it triggered a memory I had of Helen making two small cuts on each wrist when we were about 15 I kept
21:24 asking her what was wrong but she wouldn’t say when I picked her up from
21:30 hospital after one of her alters had cut her arms it saddened me she seemed to
21:35 have no control over the more troubled personalities like Carl Brenda and Alex who all seemed to be avoiding me and the
21:44 cutting is that who that was Carl as well right yeah I think so I don’t know I don’t know for definite
21:50 nobody’s confessed hi Helen hi hi how
22:12 are you I’m good what’s going on I can
22:22 hear he nice isn’t it
22:27 not like Phil the bird yeah that’s it
22:33 you feel me I am yeah I don’t as Helen go out and buy razor
22:42 blades to cut my arm to it it’s another part of me and they must hide them
22:48 somewhere but it’s very rare that I am
22:54 found
23:01 there must be one of the others so
23:08 I can say hand on heart that I haven’t drunk knowingly for 14 months who do you
23:18 think that was probably Brenda or maybe
23:23 Carl I couldn’t understand why Helen’s alter
23:28 personalities abused alcohol or harmed her so much I wanted to know what could have happened in Helens life to have
23:35 caused this much pain but what I found out next was almost too horrific to contemplate
23:56 it was hard for me to see how Helen Zille two personalities hurt her
24:03 I needed to know what could have caused my friend so much pain well I was
24:13 severely abused as a child and I cope
24:23 with that by blocking out so that’s why you never knew anything about it and I
24:30 never knew anything about it because what I did was create different personas
24:37 when I was being abused and so I could wake up as Helen the next morning and
24:43 not remember what had happened to me and I carried on doing that and as soon as
24:51 the abuse continued and so that’s where
24:56 the multiple personalities come in major
25:05 yeah yeah it was awful to think what
25:11 Helen might have been going through when we were so young I had to know if this
25:17 could be the reason that Helen had the disorder so I showed some of my footage to a respected psychiatrist
25:24 the main problem about the social team identity disorder is regarding our
25:29 knowledge about it is almost the whole thing we don’t know very much about it as all but the ideas that you know I’ve
25:38 read about and that certainly would seem to me to fit that a person who it has to
25:44 suffer intolerable distress will have to find a way of dealing with that I find a
25:49 defense mechanism of somehow so can be that you always split your mind maybe it
25:55 initially does into two parts the bit that faces the world and the bit that lives inside you that you feel safe that
26:03 makes you feel safe I was still struggling to understand why Helen’s
26:08 personalities hurt her if they are supposed to be created to help her when I finally met the elusive Karl
26:15 how old are you 16 another cool doomed
26:24 I would appreciate knowing who cut my
26:30 arms yesterday and why and the same goes with regard to taking of any pills all
26:36 of this upsets me a great deal why do you do it why Helen why do you do
26:43 because it’s easier to feel physical pain than it is emotional pain I think
26:54 she understands but she doesn’t like the fact their arms have been cut to shreds
26:59 dear Helen I’m sorry it was me but it was either that or taking the tablets I
27:06 cut because I hurt inside and I felt desperate I’m scared if I say what
27:12 happened people will think I’m evil in like what we called the team one of my
27:20 roles is to have some escapism and I’ve
27:29 learned not to do it dangerously now I used to be pills and he used to be
27:36 alcohol used to be drugs and stuff you know and sorry I can hear with him
27:48 talking in my head he’s just saying
27:55 hello mr. Harvey says hello Helen told me she
28:04 had created her multiple personalities whilst enduring severe abuse as a child but it bothered me that she herself had
28:10 no memories of what might have happened or who might have been responsible to my
28:15 horror I discovered that many people with Helens disorder believed that they suffered ritual abuse at the hands of a satanic cult I couldn’t believe that
28:24 Satanist abuse actually goes on in our society Helen told me she knew of a psychiatrist who has been working with
28:31 di D sufferers with these kinds of memories for 13 years so I thought I should go and meet her I can understand
28:39 people being skeptical but once you’ve come across it once you’ve seen somebody as different alters reliving the
28:47 memories and experiencing the pain all over again there’s no mistaking it a lot
28:53 of child abuse is either sexual or physical or emotional and psychological
29:00 well Satanist abuse is all is torture a lot of sexual abuse it’s not just a
29:07 one-off trauma it’s um relentless day to day prolonged trauma if it’s
29:13 generational it starts at a very early age often in babyhood and so it would
29:19 fit all the criteria for causing the ID I still couldn’t believe that such
29:26 atrocities could have happened to Helen in our middle-class suburban town I discovered that there have never been
29:32 any proven cases of satanic abuse in Britain but Joan Coleman is convinced that the cults exist and so is Helen
29:41 I wondered how Helen had felt when she first sent something awful might have happened to her I hurt a lot inside I had not fully
29:52 fledged memories but I was having flashbacks of something that was not very pleasant it was almost like cine
30:01 film in my mind and it would just flash by each caption and I couldn’t piece
30:07 anything together at first I was
30:14 actually diagnosed schizophrenic I was losing chunks of time and gradually more
30:23 till people came out people I just
30:33 thought I was going crazy basically initially Alex came out and was shooting
30:40 everybody and William came out and I
30:47 remember Brenda and Kings my head and I thought I hate the name Brenda why there
30:53 what’s the name Brenda guy in the head form and she was a bit feisty and hello
31:07 hey hi hi are you Brenda yeah hi Brenda
31:12 hi we meet at last yeah he diesel filming yeah what have
31:25 you heard about me is it all good I had all good I had your very feisty very
31:30 feisty yeah what’s feisty me the cute
31:36 giggly Brenda wasn’t quite what I expected she reminded me of Helen as a young teenager I wanted to know what
31:43 memories she had about what might have happened to hell him when we were still at school I remember some really crappy
31:49 things one of my abusers got me pregnant
31:54 and Helen was 16 at the time and I sorry
32:12 it’s hard to talk about and I
32:22 remember having to having the fetus of
32:28 what the embryo aborted making being made to eat it
32:46 I feel best about I’m remembering some
32:53 horrible things and I hurt because I feel robbed of everything I feel bad and dirty my innocence and
33:01 trust have been stolen from me as well as my body which I hate anyway and which
33:07 feels contaminated all I ever wanted to be was a normal girl not one who lives
33:12 in a prison and always has to be on guard Brenda
33:24 after hearing Brenda’s convincing account of what she claimed to have been through I felt I might be starting to
33:29 understand why Helens mind had created the other personalities but then I came across the British false memory society
33:36 and I discovered that there are many eminent psychologists who have a totally conflicting theory I came to the
33:42 inescapable conclusion that multiple personality disorder is an E actor genic
33:48 phenomenon that is to say it is a creature of the consulting-room
33:53 something which patient and therapists both with all sincerity but in a
34:01 completely self-perceived way something which these two individuals manufacture
34:07 it’s a theatrical artifact it is no more than an elaborate role play I could say
34:16 excuse me I could show you that the new
34:22 Lego that I’ve got that I’m going to start building soon okay cook me have a
34:28 look at it later yes there’s no way that
34:40 I could consistently speak in a childlike mode I don’t see how you can
34:48 do it I mean would you be able to I know
34:54 this research that says that di D patients are very suggestible none of my
35:02 therapists have ever planted any memory it’s been a process whereby things have
35:10 come out and of course turmoil but there
35:15 isn’t there’s no way anyone’s planted anything in my head not as far as I’m
35:20 concerned anyway if they have I’m oblivious to it when something awful
35:27 happens we do not forget we remember trauma there’s no evidence
35:33 at all in the scientific literature for the Freudian notion of repression we do
35:39 not forget unpleasant things and bury them in some unconscious
35:46 I didn’t know what to think it’s true that Helen had a lot of controversial therapy but to Brenda the memories had
35:52 seemed so real it bothered me that the false memory society was a campaign group with its own agenda it was all
36:00 getting very confusing for me it was even more confusing for Helen I’m trying
36:06 really hard to understand what’s going on at the moment I’m fast reaching the point where by oh no I’m going to have
36:12 to talk about some things and hear things that they’re going to be unpleasant but I’m scared inside and
36:19 can’t seem to take the courage in both hands Helen what are you scared of
36:24 scared of facing the truth or what
36:29 I’m fed up I’ve got bad things in my head I keep being super Adam because I
36:35 want to be strong super Adam super Adam go away go away nobody can hurt me now
36:46 these are my Diaries ya know Helen was just reading it out I
36:51 mean I know that the abuse was severe
37:00 and my therapist confirm that for me it
37:07 in the end I had to say to my therapist you know like am I crazy or it these you
37:19 know real real memories she said only you can tell me where they were their
37:24 memories but are you not going crazy and so I deduce from that then then the
37:32 memories were real I still had so many questions was she abused and if so by
37:39 whom could she really have been the victim of a satanic cult or could the memories and the alter personalities
37:45 have been created in therapy maybe there’s a third possibility maybe she
37:52 was abused but not in a satanic cult but then where are those memories
37:57 after spending so much time with Helen I realized that none of this really matters this is Helens reality this is how she
38:04 leads her life and it is not always easy I feel sick why I don’t know that you’re
38:15 going to be sick yes really at times there can be some very amusing
38:22 things that happen but at other times you know like for example when I’m in
38:29 pain and I hear a child inside me cry the experience is so real of having a
38:37 child crying in my head and knowing that the child is invisible but it’s actually
38:45 part of me and not being able to console that child
38:51 that’s difficult and that makes it a difficult condition to live with
39:23 living with her multiple personalities is not easy for Helen so I decided to treat her to a special birthday outing
39:29 to London William Brenda and Karl didn’t
39:38 appear that day and I wondered if I would ever get to meet Alex I ended up spending most of the day with
39:45 Adam so I had no choice but to ditch my plans for the Natural History Museum and go somewhere a lot more interesting
39:51 instead how did that say it there
40:08 that’s brilliant isn’t it 2299 I might get that oh I think I’ll
40:20 get Adam cost me a fortune and let go
40:26 but I feel very close to Adam it’s like Adam allows me to have the childhood
40:34 that I don’t remember having missing doesn’t it say I’m there I’m gonna label
40:41 that’s over $99.99 chief yeah certainly
40:57 is hello hello
41:07 all right you having a nice birthday Helen yeah
41:13 what were we doing was fine well we’ve had a McDonald’s platform
41:21 how thoughtful helen appeared briefly so i grabbed the opportunity to wish her a
41:27 happy birthday i’d planned a day full of surprises for her and i even got a little surprise myself
41:34 hoo-ee hello Alex we’re in a taxi in
41:41 London going to another surprise to supply
41:49 coming a surprise I
42:20 happy birthday Alex sing happy birthday
42:26 to
42:35 there was never a dull moment hanging out with Helen but I did wonder if she’d ever get better if she could go back to
42:42 being one person with one personality
42:52 hailing for somebody with dissociative identity disorder means more than just
42:59 curing the symptoms or somehow reintegrating all the different
43:04 personalities into one that would seem to be the obvious goal of treatment but I think we need to think in terms of a
43:13 person being able to live with whatever they’re suffering from and recognizing
43:19 that it’s actually a way that nature has provided you with getting five
43:42 so tricky issue earlier the issue of integration but I used to be really
43:50 really auntie integration whereas now I don’t mind certain personalities being
43:58 integrated than some of them are but
44:07 William alderman Alex I’d like to keep hold of really especially Adam because
44:16 Adams seen me through some tough times and I’d miss his little voice in my head
44:26 I’d miss all of their voices in my head
44:35 it’s kind of like bizarre because at the beginning I was having all these voices in my head and I think what the hell’s
44:42 going on you know I was going mad basically it’s the back way it’s got the
44:47 culture and that it would be easier to be mad than to have this condition
44:53 called multiple personality disorder and how the hell can you have multiple
44:59 personalities in the same body but then
45:08 sort of I’ve kind of moved on accepted that accepted the diagnosis and
45:16 gradually got to know my inner self thanks
45:27 you people like Adam and women Alex
45:39 they’re like the childlike parts of me and
45:49 I know I just I don’t I don’t want full
45:54 integration
46:07 I guess it will never find out what really happened to Helen I just wished
46:12 that her personalities would stop harming her and that her scars will heal both inside and out
46:23 I’m glad our paths crossed again Helen is just as lovely as I remember and I even gained a few more little friends
46:30 along the way I don’t I don’t I don’t
46:38 Adam Adam Adam I don’t I don’t really
46:45 like come out got your Adam is it yeah
46:52 what I don’t say that like survived
47:00 hostage in I don’t think so vendor quite nice for the green peppers in it very
47:06 peanutty isn’t it yeah well that’s good they all say disassociation and it’s not
47:15 bloody disassociation it’s dissociation
47:22 you feel me just playing with my toys
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You tube Dr. Joan Coleman : Abus Rituels Sataniques et Trouble Dissociatif de l’Identité [1] French substitles
helen told me she had created her
0:06 multiple personalities whilst enduring
0:08 severe abuse as a child
0:10 but it bothered me that she herself had
0:11 no memories of what might have happened
0:13 or who might have been responsible to my
0:16 horror i discovered that many people
0:18 with helen’s disorder believe that they
0:19 suffered ritual abuse at the hands of a
0:21 satanic cult
0:25 i couldn’t believe that satanist abuse
0:27 actually goes on in our society helen
0:30 told me she knew of a psychiatrist who
0:32 has been working with did sufferers with
0:33 these kinds of memories for 13 years
0:36 so i thought i should go and meet her
0:40 i can understand people being skeptical
0:42 but once you’ve come across
0:44 it once you’ve seen somebody as
0:46 different daughters
0:48 reliving the memories and experiencing
0:50 the pain all over again
0:52 there’s no mistaking it a lot of child
0:55 abuse is either sexual
0:57 or physical or emotional
1:00 and psychological well satanist abuse is
1:03 all
1:04 there’s torture a lot of sexual abuse
1:08 it’s not just a one-off trauma it’s um
1:11 relentless
1:12 day-to-day prolonged trauma if it’s
1:15 generational it starts at a very early
1:17 age often in babyhood
1:19 and so it would fit all the criteria for
1:22 causing
1:23 the id
1:26 i still couldn’t believe that such
1:27 atrocities could have happened to helen
1:29 in our middle class suburban town
1:32 i wondered how helen had felt when she
1:34 first sent something awful might have
1:35 happened to her
1:38 i hurt a lot inside i i had
1:42 not fully fledged memories but i was
1:44 having flashbacks of
1:46 of something that was not very pleasant
1:50 it was almost like a cine film in my
1:52 mind and it would just
1:54 flash by each caption and
1:57 i couldn’t piece anything together